What should I do to make him change?  What should I do to make him care about me and love me?  What can I do, God?  I think I deserve to be loved.  Then why this is happening to me? Am I not deserved to get the happiness in my marriage? I am a woman and I want to be loved. I don’t know.  I just don’t know what to do with my life and my marriage.  I never thought that I will be betrayed like this.  I never thought that he will change like this.  Now I just don’t know what to do.

I start to feel so cold now.  Every time I have some problems with my husband especially about this, the cold is attacking me.  I feel frozen inside and it is entering my body and my soul.  I have to control my self about this.  I have to fight this stress but I don’t know what to do.

I am so weak and so weak.  I need my husband to strengthen me.  But when he is no longer with me, when his heart is no longer pure for me, when he is no longer care about me, I think I am going to die. I have nothing and I have nothing.
I have nothing to proud of in front of families and friends, I have nothing to hold, I have nothing to love and I have nothing.

His parent divorced. Will that happen to me too?  Will that happen to my marriage?  No, please don’t………please, I never want that. Please God, don’t let that happen to me and my marriage.  I love my husband and I hope he love me too.  I hope he can love me just like when we first met and fall in love.

Honey, I love you so much and I think I can’t get through this life without you. If you ever leave me and hurt me again, I think I am going to die.